Thursday, March 27, 2003
=*= Fake People =*=
so boring.gonna go prepare for school after i post this entry.life is so unpredictable.*sigh* my friend,jason,in singapore who is kinda struggling with leukemia now is being quarantined at home cos he is suspected to been affected by SARS.he is not allowed to go out of the house at the time being.*sigh* told my mum and mum was shocked.she likes jason,she say jason very nice person so she is oways asking me about his condition.told her about him being quarantined at home,she sighed.she say now that jason is so weak,it's easier for him to be affected by SARS.*sigh* man,why is this happening to him?my good friend.i'm so worried for him now?i heard they found a cure for SARS,is that true?does anyone know?can u tell me more please?*sigh* went to the library with doris and stephanie yesterday.yes,i feel like nerd with no social life.my favourite hangout is the library.*duh* of cos not man! it's juz that we all have to realli study hard this year,no time to waste anymore.and i'm hell not going to waste my time like last year and den repeat year 12 again.it's a definite no-no.work hard now den play hard in the holidays coming up.*grins* anyway,i juz hate people who fake so much and how they act like they are so weak in front of guys.oh man,they sux!!~ wat for man wat for!? to gain sympathy so they will care for u more?it's so stupid! u're weak but u can be strong and u dun haf to act all pathetic in front of guys.oh man!!~i'm weak too but at least i dun go around looking for people who will sympatize me? *duhz* i'll learn to be strong and so can u people out there.sheesh! i can't stand people lidat.sux sux sux!!~hur~went to Sunday's Everyday again last night.wat the hell,two consecutive days,i bet soon we will get the "Most Regular Customers" award eh? haha~yeah cos loletta is leaving this morning to malaysia and doris wanted to meet her up.so yeah.*sigh* these few days have been quite ~!#$%^ for me.why is it that when i finally learn to treasure someone,he will leave me? and i dun get it how two person once so in love,can totally ignore and forget you so fast? it hurts.it realli does.*sigh* why do good frenz who had the same feelings for each other become strangers after saying out how they feel? haiz..bored...so many whys.okies i better go and prepare for school now.the time now is 12:05pm and i have to leave the house at around 12:45pm.i dun think i can make it hey.i still have to blowdry my hair,and then pack my bag and den choose wat to wear to school.okok,i better stop talking.*hugs*
=*= Song Playing: Sarah McLachlan - Angel =*=
Eunice @ 8:08:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 26, 2003
=*= Friends =*=
went to the library juz now with Doris and Ariel.didn't do much we juz kept talking and talking.den drove doris and myself down to a cafe Sunday's Everyday for a cup of coffee and the topic about losing friends and treasuring friends juz came in out of nowhere.decided to treasure my frenz more from today onwards.and i think i got some catching up to do with my lost frenz too.*sigh* where am i going to start? a simple "hello" ? hmm..dunnoe~dropped english in school already.so i'm left with 4 subjects.went to school for onli 1 hour and 45 minutes today.a bit stupid actually~drive all the way up which takes me 20minutes den drive back down again after lesson.stupid isn't it?going down to the library tomorrow again.maybe play snooker after library.yeah..haven played that for quite some time.*sigh* my ex boyfriend,david,still asking me to patch up with him.he has turned more matured now but my feelings ain't that strong for him.it's been 1 and a half years since we broke up.*sigh* but i told him that my heart hasn't forget someone yet.so he juz ask me to go ahead with my decision and believe in my heart.he didn't used to be that understanding.i guessed he changed.hmm,dunnoe.i dun wanna hurt him anymore.hey,watching the news now,and george bush is like thanking their military forces.has america won the war?seems like it.anyway,i better go study now.i shall end with theresa and jeff,i hope u guys cheer up soon.*hugs* i love u guys!
=*= Song Playing: Lu Qiao Ying - Hao Xin Fen Shou =*=
Eunice @ 7:48:00 AM
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Monday, March 24, 2003
=*= School Is Boring =*=
school was boring today,maybe from the lack of sleep.i'm so tired.piled up with lotsa homework today too. *stressed* anyway,spend most of my break with sam,jason and daisy today.we were talking about anything.haha.i just realised guys are good gossipers too! apparently,we were talking about this singaporean chick,silver,who sleeps around with anyone.yes i mean anyone.sheesh!such a slut.she had sex with my friend's brother on the first day they met,den i heard from the guys today that she had sex with their friend as well and during the weekend she had a violent sex with their another friend.(SM) i would call it.hur~stupid thing.yeah,jason and sam couldn't stop gossiping about her cos she was sitting a few tables away from us.i had to stop them! haha~it's fun gossiping with guys.haha!~anyway,stomach didn't ache much today,hope it will improve.hmm..i'm still feeling low,but i hope i can overcome this soon.gonna help sam out in economics these few days.he's stressing up so badly.poor thing.hope i can be a good teacher.these 3 people are fun to be with.especially that i have been feeling down recently,suddenly a few jokers come along and made mi laugh like mad,it certainly made me feel better.thanx sam,daisy and jason.not like u guys will see this anyway. =) yeah,our lesson was at 2:45pm today and all four of us didn't wanna go for class,especially jason and myself.so when daisy and sam went to their class,jason and i juz stand there and talk,while waiting for him to finish smoking.we were late for class by about 10-15 minutes.the rest of the day was juz boring.i think i got to go now,eat dinner den study my head off.*sigh* the stress is building up on me again.sorry to my dear friends who tried to cheer me up last few days but didn't work.thank u all~*hugs*
=*= Song Playing: Mariah Carey - Thank God I Found You =*=
Eunice @ 3:04:00 AM
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Sunday, March 23, 2003
=*= I've Fallen Again =*=
wanted to blog this afternoon but i dunno for wat reason this page couldn't load properly,and it took a damn long time to load so i juz gave up.i'm now using my brother's computer,he juz went out.things are pretty much the same as yesterday.i was supposed to go to the gym with doris today but i couldn't make it.partly cos my mood was down and i am feeling a little sick.my throat is sore and painful,blame myself for not drinking enough water.damn!can the lump in my throat be caused by this too?maybe huh?anyway,i went on to irc juz now and i found jeff online too! hi jeff~*waves* he was trying to cheer me up but it seem like it didn't realli work.sorry jeff,i'm juz stubborn.i noe u care though,thanx a lot.*hugs* hmm..mum's mood was a bit foul today and so again i was given a mild silent treatment.the worst victim was my dad i guess.my mum has been venting her anger on him the most.poor dad.no matter wat he did,he still can't satisfy mum.maybe cos mum still can't forgive him for what he did last year.so no matter how hard he try to please mum,it still wouldn't change much.*sigh*i can see the sadness in his eyes,i noe he's feeling hurt but he's strong.he's patient and he is hanging on tight though there were a few times he talked to me about mum's attitude towards him.zzz,when will they be alright again?when will my mum open her heart and accept dad again?when will i have a normal and happy family again?haizz..maybe i won't anymore.maybe i shud accept it this way.dunnoe.dun wanna think anymore.i'm tired.was sitting in my room juz now,staring out the window,day-dreaming,thought about lotsa things.realised i miss singapore,i miss zhenyi,i miss bird,theresa,huiting,meiyun.i miss everyone.i can't wait till i go back end of the year.i wanna get rid of all these sadness,i noe i can't oways depend on my friends to cheer me up,i have to pick myself up too.have i fallen again?am i lost?can someone lead me back pls?
=*= Song Playing: Trademark - Something Only Love Can Do =*=
Eunice @ 5:29:00 AM
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Saturday, March 22, 2003
=*= Feeling Down =*=
new blog. however, this is a private blog. all my innermost feelings will be posted here. not much people will know about this site, if u noe about this site, dat means u r someone important to me and someone whom i really trust. thanx.*sigh* i'm feeling so low today, i dunno why.maybe it's the emptiness i'm feeling inside.why am i feeling empty? i do not know why either. not a good day to chat with anyone i supposed.had a small conflict with buddy,jiaming,juz now. it was my fault i noe. i knew he cared for me.he asked me go c a doctor. and when i told him,that i scared the lump in my throat would be something serious,and if it's realli soemthing serious, i won't be able to tok to my friends normally anymore cos i will be brooding over it.if i am supposed to die i will die, so i rather not go see a doctor and die suddenly one day. no regrets. but he said he hate people who has this attitude,like drama lidat.the word "hate" juz suddenly make me feel so down.this is the first time buddy say "hate" to me.maybe it's not to me but i dunno.*sigh* i'm still talking to him on irc now.studied the whole afternoon today.so tired.feel like going for a drive now but i noe i can't.*sigh* i wanna gaze at the stars,i wanna go to the beach and listen to the waves rush to shore, i wanna sit there and wait for the sun to rise,a brand new day,to make me feel better.but i can't.*sigh* my mood has been swinging quite badly recently.why why why? i juz hope it won't affect my studies again like last year.i have to be strong i noe.haiz,i need some friends, i need someone who cares and loves me,someone who can tolerate my moodswings and understand me.where is my xing fu? wo de xing fu zai na li?By the way, Happy Birthday to my best pal,zhenyi.TONGYI ROX!
=*= Song Playing: Power Station - Wai Tao =*=
Eunice @ 8:40:00 AM
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