Wednesday, December 31, 2003
Happy New Year!!! i'm happily slurping on my cup noodles..=D...seafood flavour..doesn't taste as good as the XO sauce flavour i had last night..anyway..i'm so happy my computer is fixed..now i can finally blog at home..icq and irc at home..and gunbound at home without looking out for my auntie...thanks to my darling..*muackz*...so what did u guys do on the last day of 2003??..mine was just an ordinary day spent with dear...he came over in the afternoon yesterday..waited for me to get ready and den we went for his lunch and my brunch at 201..had kuay chap..woooooooooo..it's been long since i eat that thing..pig's intestines and organs..lol...ok..this may sound gross to some people..like doris?...lol..but it was alright..quite nice...then we went home..watched the first disc of ju-on...my brother came home with ray..and i chatted with them for awhile..while dear explore my computer..went to buy the CPU cooler thingy after that...and after hours of dragging,moving,plucking,installing here and there..my computer is fixed!!! laala..so the problem doesn't only lies on the motherboard...the motherboard and the power supply and the ram all spoilt...-.-"...wonderful job eunice ng..=D..watched the second disc of ju on after that...the show is pretty scary hey..i still got that boy's and woman's face in my mind...quite creative...they choose to put the scary parts where people think are the safest place to hide...e.g under the blanket...duhz...i wanna catch Ju-on 2...though i think it's much more scarier..but i want to..=DD...have to work today..boring..2pm to 10pm..what is this man...why do i have to work on public holidays....grrrr..so i think i better go and prepare myself now...dearie..have a good rest today okie??..miss you..*muackz* and take care guys..!!
Eunice @ 8:29:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 30, 2003
sigh...today sucks...i feel so bloody down..firstly auntie welcome me today with some news..-.-" and then a quarrel with dear...sigh..okie let me elaborate the story...i came to work this afternoon and my auntie told me that she will be going on a holiday on the 25th of January..and will only be back most probably a few days or a week before i go back to australia..so i won't have the chance to work alternate days anymore...and i be handling the shop
alone..my uncle's away in taiwan/japan and my two cousins have school to attend...my mood immediately sank..=\...i only told her i wanted to work alternate days last week so that i can spend more time with my boyfriend and friends..and she agreed...i was so happy...but she decided to ruin my happiness...not only do i have to work alone..i might not get any off days at all..she told me that unless my cousins are working on satuday then i will be able to take saturday and sunday off...and i can only take sunday off if only my uncle is back in singapore..not overseas..so that means if my uncle's not free and my cousins decided not to work..den i be working full time 7 days..i'm gonna be exhausted..of course i am not happy with her decision...my time is all used up with working...i was still planning to stop work a month before i go back to australia..but now i can't anymore..i won't have time to spend with my dear and my friends..i'm so down..and disappointed....dear was very angry at her decision too..he thinks my auntie is bullying me..well..obviously i know that too...he wants to find me a new job and ask me to quit this job immediately...he even offered to give me half his pay so i can stop working at this horrible place....he wanted me to tell my auntie about it too..he was angry cos i will be working alone..which is a workload of 3 person and i am only given a pay of $4/hour..and she at first agreed for me to work alternate days too..but she's my auntie dear..how do u expect me to go and tell her?? at first i know dear was already unhappy with me working at this place cos i dun get to eat anything here either..i mean i'm allowed to eat the food here but it's not proper food u see? and i got no lunch break or dinner break..furthermore my auntie always leave me alone and go shopping herself..*sigh* dear..u also know i'm a person who would rather suffer a bit than to cause conflicts..summore this is my auntie..should show some respect...dear was so angry he asked me to call my mum and tell her or else he will call her himself...i told him i will call mummy tonight myself..but i'm sure mummy wouldn't say anything either...she will just ask me to bear with it..*sigh* and our quarrel started...i know the things dear said were true and make sense but i just don't have the courage to go and tell my auntie..he wanted to come down to my workplace and talk to my auntie for me..but i asked him not to..i dun wan him to quarrel with my auntie..i don't want any of my family members or relatives to think my boy is such a bad person..no respect blahblahblah...i want everyone to know that he's the best boyfriend...i dun want him to have any conflicts with my auntie or any of my relatives...in the end..i know because of anger..dear said some very hurting stuff to me...my heart hurts when i heard him say those stuff..but i dun blame him..i know it's out of anger...but still it hurt me..=\ i know dear is still angry with me cos he didn't reply my sms...i guess i won't hear his voice tonight before i sleep...and he most probably won't be coming to my place tomorrow to accompany me..sorry dear..it's not that i dun wanna listen to you..it's just i really don't have the courage to go and tell my auntie..i will call mummy tonight first and see how..but most probably there will be no changes..forgive me..i love you...=~~~~
Eunice @ 2:41:00 AM
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Thursday, December 25, 2003
i'm here to blog again...business is so bad today...less than 10 customers..cool..i got the time to stay online...mr santa decided to greet me with my period the day before christmas eve..damn it..i hate it when i'm having my period..that's cos i tend to have very heavy flow..and i hate needing to change pads every 2 hours..okie..i shall not complain..i'm a girl..and i need to get used to this..=~~..christmas eve was spent at bird's house..steamboat..there were so much food..i just didn't know what to say when bird took out the boxes of food one after another...it was like neverending...anyway..i was so full..i think i got full by the drinks i drank..lols..i drank like 2 cans and 2 packets of drinks..hurhur..shhh..i'm thirsty ok..and people who know me well..knows that i drink pretty fast too..lol.=D..went home at around 2am..cos i overflowed..lolz..=X...(see why i hate periods so much!!?!?)..spent christmas yesterday with dear at my house..he's so sweet..so nice...so best of the best..right..i think my english is deterioting..what the hell is "so best of the best"?? okie shut up..dear bought me champagne blue roses!!!! =DDD...first time i received flowers from a guy..and and it's my favourite champage blue roses!! oh my god..it's so pretty!!!...and he bought me another care bear..pink one this time..larger than the last one he bought for me..and he also bought a log cake!! =DD...dear is just such a sensitive boyfriend..=DD...i remember i only said that i like champagne blue roses that time..just like a casual remark..and he bought it for me...the other time we were on the phone..and there's an advertisement on log cakes on tv...i remember just saying i wanna eat log cake...just a simple sentence like that..and he went to buy the log cake...i just love him so much...he treats me so nice..no one has ever treated me this way before...all the while i lacked self confidence..all i thought is that no one would love me the way i am..even if there is..they wouldn't treat me so nice..and i wouldn't be worth the effort anyway...but dear showed me the light...he brought me out of my negative thinking and gained back my self esteem...he's just so special...i was so touched yesterday but i didn't showed it out..but at night...i dunno why suddenly i think about us...running out of time..that i'm going back to australia and i had a strong instinct that we won't last..and will break up...we won't even have the 1st year anniversary...tears just rolled down my cheeks...i walked out of the room to my brother's room...smoked and cried..not wanting to show him how badly i was crying inside...he walked to my brother's room awhile later and i quickly wipe away my tears...dear hugged me..and asked if i'm okay...i hugged him back tight and my tears dropped again..it's then that i knew how important he is to me..what am i going to do if one day i lose him...i'm definitely gonna miss his hugs and kisses when i'm back to perth...when i asked him if he's worried at all..he say he's not..he so full of confidence...he believed in himself so much..he's not worried that we will break up when i go back to australia..cos he got faith in himself and me...he say that he believe in me...it's such a relieve to hear him so confident...he said that even if we really break up...4 years later when i'm back to singapore after my studies..he's definitely gonna get me back..i was so touched...i really was...tears just couldn't help rolling down..and dear was also getting more and more worried as i cried more..dear..thanks for everything....thanks for showering me with ur love ur care ur hugs ur kisses...thanks for accepting me for who i am..and not how i look...thanks for helping me tidy up my room everytime u come over to my house...etc etc..there's just too much to thank you...i love you dear...*muackz*...dear's coming down to my workplace today to accompany me home..can't wait to see him..i miss him so much...=)...see u guys ya?...take care~~~
Eunice @ 9:50:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 23, 2003
lalalalala...got my results on monday...i did well..not that good..but i'm pretty happy with it..if i compare to last year then i'm even happier..i'm proud of myself..and i didn't let my parents and friends down this time..i got a TER of 87..compared to a TER of 66 last year..i wasn't even eligible for any of the universities...as for this year..it's so nice to see that i'm eligible for every university..even The University of Western Australia (UWA)...!!! i'm so damn happy!!!..anyway..i succesfully requested from my auntie for working alternate days..i had to pluck up so much courage...anyone wanna give me a courageous award? >.< heehee..and so i spent my off day yesterday with dearie at home..helped that lazy boy wrapped up his presents for his friends...spent about 1 hours plus...zzzz...and then we went to buy dinner...and watched "Inner Senses"..was supposed to watch with doris that time..but we decided to go play pool halfway through the show..at first i thought it was scary..but after the show i found it ermm...alright la..=D...gonna go to bird's house after work today for steamboat..=DD..and tomorrow..is gonna be spent with my darling..=D..heehee..*yawns*...i'm so tired..i only slept for 4 hours..grrr..=(..and seems like my auntie is not coming in today..11 working hours again..all alone..tired tired...hmmm..weird..joseph sent me a message on friendster today and told me that sam is looking for me..asked me to send sam a sms..so i did and he replied..and say he will contact me later..-.-" sheesh..i thought i can finally hide from them..=(..but they found me again..oh oh!! forgot to mention..i received a call last night from someone really weird..he claimed that his name is shawn..i know nobody by the name of shawn..so i thought it muz be wrong number..but he said that he dunno me too..he just wanna find someone and talk..i was already quite pissed and annoyed alright...he say he have some problems and asked if i can listen to him...so i said " u say lah.." den he asked me not to be so fierce...den bryan asked me to hang up..he called back again and this time bryan answered, the person didn't talk at all so he hang up...then he called the third time..again not saying anything so i hang up..i thought he wouldn't call again..but i was wronged..he called this morning around 9am..i didn't think that it will be him..cos it's on private number..i thought it might be my auntie or my mum that called from australia..but it was him!!! he asked me if i can listen to him..so i asked to say..i'm listening..then he told me he raped his girlfriend's sis that day...so i was like " okie lor.." lol..i didn't know how to react..then he told me that his gf sis is only 13..and asked me what can he do..i said " i dunno..go and tell ur girlfriend loh.." hahaha..i was already very annoyed that some random person wake me up from my sleep..and even annoyed when he tell me things like that..heehee..then he asked if he can meet me..i said no..of cos no..then he asked me why..i say i dun wan..then he asked me where is my bf and asked me where i lived and where i worked..sheesh..sound like a pervert...anyway of cos i didn't tell him where i lived and worked..i only told him that my bf is beside me..which is a lie..=D..alright alright..blogged enough...see u guys..
Eunice @ 9:02:00 PM
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Sunday, December 21, 2003
oh my god..i'm super duper tired..only slept for 5 hours..and i am working 11 hours today...gosh..anyway..was supposed to go to the temple this morning to pray my grandpa..but piggy me overslept and only woke up at 9:30am..oh we were supposed to meet at toa payoh at 9am if i fail to mention..and those who know the map of singapore would certainly know roughly how long it takes to travel from tampines to toa payoh..hurhur..so in the end..my auntie called and ask me to come down to my workplace instead..(well..they always come down here after they pray)..anyway..all my relatives wanted to see my dear brother..but MR EUGENE NG just chose to not come home last night..and sleep like a dead log at whoever's place this morning..i bet i gave him like 20 missed calls this morning..and i still couldn't wake him up..in the end i have to come up with some stupid lie..saying my brother couldn't come cos he had to help out at his friend's workplace today cos they are lack of workers...haha..fortunately they all believed me..anyway..my brother called me up later and say he's not coming down..seriously i was pissed..he hasn't even visited my grandma since he arrived in singapore and has not called any of my aunties either..my grandma wanted to see him today but he say he doesn't wanna come down..sheesh..no respect..i felt like slapping him..anyway..i just said " u dun wanna come den dun come!!." and hang up on him..haha..this is the first time i actually hang up on my brother..ewwww..i'm so guilty NOT!! heeheee!! so my auntie left me alone to handle the shop today and i just played gunbound with dear the whole day..lolz..leaving the whole pile of dishes in the sink..nahh..dun care..lol..anyway..i'm so sick of working in this stupid shop..i'm so being used..i wanna quit..no maybe not since it's so hard to find a job out there now..but i wanna suggest to my auntie that i wanna work alternate days but i just can't bring myself to go and tell her..what am i going to say??..the reason i wanna work alternate days is that..i have been working 6 days a week..and i dun even get a to meet up my dearest friends and boyfriend much at all..which is my main point back?? to visit my friends and have fun??..sheesh..i dunnoe..any suggestions how i'm gonna open my big mouth and tell my auntie??..hmm..my TEE results are coming out on tuesday..i'm so nervous but excited..and scared and terrified of the outcome..i bet i can't sleep tomorrow night..what am i going to do..i can't stop thinking what if i can't make it this year again? what if i fail? or what if my nightmare came through..that they have no records of me sitting the examination this year..ok that's a bit exaggerating..lols..ARGHZ..I'M NERVOUS!! sigh..dear is accompanying me home from my workplace today..yeah..finally~..whee!! i miss him so much..though i just saw him on friday..heehee! can't wait till christmas day so i can give him his present and also spend the whole day together..*muackz* i just love him so much...he's such a good boyfriend..bird said that i'm a lucky girl..i think so too~..cos i have him now..but sometimes i really dunno what to do when i think about me going back to australia in february..will we still last? will distance break our trust? our commitment? our relationship?..i can't imagine if i lose him..i'm scared to lose him..i really love him a lot..grandma and my auntie say that when i go back to australia..we both will drift apart and each will go seperate ways..and it's gonna be so wasted...it kept me thinking for awhile and really made me sad..i hope our relationship will last but i dare not put too much hope in it...all that matters now is to cherish our 2 months together..all the time before i go back to australia..bryan dear..i'm gonna miss you a lot..*muackz*...alright i'm gonna sign off here now..gonna go and clean up the shop for closing..see ya guys...
Eunice @ 5:35:00 AM
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Sunday, December 14, 2003
*yawns* i'm so tired...too bad i got to work today or else i would definitely spend the whole day lying under my blanket and sleep...that would be nice since the weather is rainy today.hehehe...hmm...went tampines mall on friday with bird and dear..accompanied bird to charles and keith to buy a new pair of shoes...and then went to buy vcd to watch..bought "Homerun" and " Turn Left, Turn Right"...didn't even finish watching one of it..haha..we only finished watching disc 2 of "My Sassy Girl" lol...anyway..and then went to Shop'N'Save to buy food to stock up at home..bought a lot a lot of stuff..i think i should mention that they are all unhealthy stuff but i dun care..lol..it's for my brother..it's all what my brother likes..didn't really bought anything for myself..well maybe the cup noodles..and stupid me forgot to buy vegetables for myself..i wanna drink my vegetable soup..damn..=(..anyway guess how much i spent at the supermarket...almost $83..sheesh..-.-"...there's goes my money...*sigh*...poor dear had to carry the heavy things..till both his hands were red..furthermore it was raining..decided to take cab home instead..lol..onli $2.80...i'm starting to dread about having to come to work everyday..it's so boring..and i have to sit here for 8 hours everyday...i worked 6 out of 7 days and onli got 1 off day..and it's really a pain in the neck to think whether to spend the day with your boyfriend or your friends..hurhur..and i also wanna spend more time with bryan...our time together is so short..only when he comes to my workplace and accompany me home..and then spend an hour or two with me..and then he have to head home...grrrr..what's worst is that..i was planning to tell my auntie i wanna take leave on christmas eve and christmas day..but before i could tell..she told me to choose whether i wanna have eve or the day itself off..-.-"...she say they don't close this place at all...even chinese new year..i was like "HARRRRR...??"..there goes my life....i can't enjoy myself at all...i have to work..oh no..help....dear say he wanna find me a new job..i like that idea but i dunno how to tell my auntie if i wanna move to another job...she needs me at her place to help her out...but she's kinda using me too..so i dunno..oh well...i'm getting hooked on gunbound..played with my sister,cousins and a few other customers today..lols..yes i am lousy..they all got hammar and i onli got a chick...sheesh..anyway..my sister got her eyes on the new Nokia 3200..it looks unique...i told her i would buy for her as a birthday present only if i got enough money before i go back to australia...hurhur..i'm such a good sister ain't i? but i'm trying to convince my mum to let me extend my trip...just dunno how to go and tell her...oh well...looks like i might not be going to uni next year afterall..my auntie wants me to go back australia and work..ask me not to stay in singapore..BLAHH...she's always making decisions for me..fuck man...my mum didn't even say anything..just because her kids made her proud..and earn their own money now..she dun have to boast around???..her kids onli got a pay like mine when they started working..sheesh..she's always telling me about how my cousins helped her through the bad times..go out and work..but ain't me and my brother trying to help my mum out now too?...she said to me everyone have to start from the beginning...so what for tell us so much..we are all trying to work now and survive on our own right?..i'm sick and tired of her always telling me how great my cousins are..like we are some spoilt children in our family..like we dunno what is hardship...u think we're not unhappy my mum's in a bad shape now?? bloody hell...we are trying to help out as well ok...arghz..makes my blood boil everytime i think about what she's always trying to tell me...if i'm so ignorant..then why the hell am i working now? why the hell would i bother to work 6 out of 7 days..?..i could jolly well spend all my money away by shopping...and take more money from my parents when i got no money left...i'm only using my own salary to spend on my own shopping alright?..anyway..let's stop..mum and dad are thinking of giving up their singapore citizenship next year or maybe soon..but my brother and i..would most probably not..i dun wan to..i wanna be a singaporean...=(...sigh...oooooo..it's almost 6pm..4 more hours and i can get to see dear..=DDD...he's so nice..can take a bus all the way from tampines..wait for me to finish work and then sit a bus back to tampines..to accompany me home..=D...he dote on me and care for me a lot...he's the best boyfriend...i wouldn't ask for more...and i will never let him go..love u darling..*muackz*
Eunice @ 1:56:00 AM
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Thursday, December 11, 2003
*sigh*...i'm in a bad mood today...been frowning since the moment i step into my workplace...maybe cos i'm tired..was on the phone with dear till 230am..i miss him...can't see him today..maybe that's another reason i'm in a bad mood...sheesh..dear helped me change my brother's bedsheet yesterday..thanks dear..*muackz*..hmm..got my off day tomorrow..finally a day i can spend my time with him properly...he took a half day off as well to accompany me..so nice...anyway..we are just going to do nothing tomorrow..lol..dear say he accompany me to NTUC to stock up the food supply at home..now that my brother's back..he can be hungry any minute..so it's always better to have some food at home..hmm..den we gonna go buy vcd and watch at home..whee..i know it sounds boring..but i'm looking forward to tomorrow..cos i finally can have him beside me not for awhile..but for hours and hours...i love it when i'm with him...*muackz* alrightey..i better get back to work now...after work it's home and let's hope time pass faster so i can see dear soon...love u dear..call u when i reach home okie?..oh i just receive his sms..saying "hehe see i can sneak out not.maybe wait for u at bus stop."..lolz..heehee...okie..see u guys..take care..!
Eunice @ 4:16:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 10, 2003
hihi! auntie's out again so i'm gonna grab this chance and blog! whee...past few days has been really wonderful...firstly i'm attached..=DD...to my darling bryan...we started off on the 8th of december...dear told me a lot of things last night that really touched my heart but i didn't want to show it..haha..=P...didn't know he has been hinting me that he like me still..lol..duhzz..am i stupid or what...went to do some deep thinking yesterday after he left...indeed indeed..i'm so slow..and i wasn't aware that his actions were all hints..sheesh!! seriously..i did like a few other guys after bryan..but i didn't stop liking him either...he still has a place in my heart...just that i thought he didn't like me anymore..so i didn't say much..and just moved on...but i was wrong..we still like each other..deeper than before..*muackz*..dear has been picking me up from work the past few days..yeah..tonight can see him le...see his new look with his new braces..HAHA..lala..anyway..my brother's on the plane now...he's arriving tonight..sheesh..so last minute..my mum only called me this morning at 9:30am and told me my brother's coming back..-.-" i was still sleeping...anyway..i told my mum about bryan..that i got a boyfriend..she sounded happy..and bombarded me with questions like "what's his name?","how old?","studying or what?"."does he smoke??","does he drink?" blah blah blah..super cute..i just kept laughing..so cool..i thought she would disagree with me having a boyfriend..but it's cool..hurhur..it's gonna be so weird with me and my brother only living under the same roof...but it's okay..i'm just not ready to be someone's maid..=X..haha..anyway..back to work now...missing my dearie..*muackz*
Eunice @ 12:27:00 AM
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Saturday, December 06, 2003
i'm hurt emotionally....a lot and a lot...cried out my heart last night..cried till i sleep...thought i would feel better this morning...but i woke up 4 hours later..and cried more...my eyes are tired...but it's cool...went out with bird yesterday...to bugis and suntec and marina..a great shopping achievement for me...i spent all my salary away..sheesh..haven't shopped like that for ages..i bought a new pink top...a new ring...a new pair of shoes...and a new loose powder set...and not forgetting the lava lamp that i bought for bryan..yes we were having quite a hard time looking for that lava lamp..anyway..i'm glad he likes it...=)...it's nice!! hehe...went for a movie last night with bryan..watched "love actually" it's alright i guess..maybe complicating and boring in the beginning but the rest of it was alright..129 minutes duration...also a very happy moment for me...anyway...let's not go there...so it's clubbing night tonight!!! going down zouk in my new pink top!!! hurhur!! gonna be the centre of attraction man..sheesh!! haha..weighed myself at bird's house juz now..guess what..i lost 6kg since i last weigh myself about 2 months ago..isn't that so cool..haha..i think mostly is cos i'm only eating one meal per day now...and it's only cup noodles...i dunno why i lost my appetite since i came back...anyway..it's good!! two thumbs up!! right then..gonna go put on my make up now...see ya...
Eunice @ 2:55:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 03, 2003
met up with xueni,leon,hanxiang,eileen,teresa & guiwen last night after work..haven't seen them for ages..not much changes..leon couldn't recognise me..he said i changed a lot..i was walking towards him and he still got no reaction until i waved at him..didn't gather for long cos the coffeeshop was closing..leon and hanxiang were tired too so we all headed home..me in my taxi..hurhur..
and so the story continues...came to work this morning..my auntie talked to me about my mum...uncle alvin called her up last night and she was crying like a tap..my heart hurts when i hear my mum cried
again *sigh*...now my mum have to settle the moving of house in australia first then she might come back to singapore alone..to see a psychiatrist to prove that she's in depression so that uncle alvin and auntie jasmine can bring the proof to the banks and ask them to hold back the debts first and let my mum sort herself out first...den when she's feeling better..then she would decide whether to come back to singapore or stay in australia...so since my air ticket is valid for a year...i may be extending my trip here...and accompany my mum...which means i might be postponing my enrolment for university...for half a year or maybe a year...*sigh* i'm worried about my mum...=\...wonder how is she now...wonder how can i help out....*waves byebye*
Eunice @ 11:05:00 PM
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mummy is considering moving back to singapore for good...all she is worrying about now is my sister...cos when my sis comes back to singapore..she might not be able to catch up anymore...or might have to dropped back a few levels...maybe she will go to the australian school here in singapore...my brother and i...might have to stop studying for awhile...which means making it to uni or not next year doesn't matter anymore...yes our family problems has come to a stage that we have to move back to singapore...and have to stop our education..but i'm sure one day in future..we will be able to resume our studies again...i thought i would be happy when i heard that we are moving back...and i didn't expect myself to feel so sad about it...how can i bear to leave my friends behind...to say the truth..i've been there for almost four years now...got used to the place..absolutely love the weather...love the people there...if we are really moving back..i'm gonna miss the clubbing sessions with the girls..the "blowjobs" with doris..the spastic look of stephanie...the retarded-ness of ivy...the lovely smile of sheila...blah blah blah...i will just miss each and every part of them...*sigh*...anyway...it's for the better for the family...financially and emotionally for my parents...oh well..back to work...i'm cooking chicken wings and fries...see ya guys then
Eunice @ 2:55:00 AM
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