Thursday, January 29, 2004
i can't fucking hide my sadness anymore...i'm sad with everything that is happening now..why is everything so fuked up??..my mum and dad problems are getting worst...that day my dad called me up and told me to draw out all the savings from the atm card...and ask me to pass anything that is valuable to my auntie..i guessed the bank is taking action soon...we might get declared bankrupt..today my auntie called me up and say that my mum's got a big big problem now..she has absolute no more money left..this sucks...den she called me again and tell me that my mum decided to sell both the houses in singapore and then use the money to repay partial debts first and maybe buy another 4 room flat in singapore...*sigh*..luckily my mum withdrew my sister out of private school to a public school..to save about two to three thousand dollars..she'll be going to my ex school..applecross senior high school...then..it's my brother who is thinking of suicide..i dunno what the fuck is wrong....poor brother....thanks to zhenyi who helped me go find him at the house...i couldn't go cos i have work..*sigh* i hope he's better..i dunnoe..i juz hope he didn't hurt himself...just hope he stop thinking rubbish...i'm praying hard...very hard....as for me..i'm thinking too much..i hate to work..i might have to go back earlier..which means i won't have even a week to be with my friends and bryan anymore..dear and i meet up for onli a few days per week...and our time together ain't long either..i just feel like we got not much time left and we're not treasuring the time left for us..i dunno...dear told me not to think so much..and if we meet up everyday and too long..when it's time for us to part it will be even more hurtful...i know..i know all these..i just hate it when he tells me he have to go home soon..i just hate to see him walk out of my door..i wished i could hug him longer...i know i should face reality...that i have to go back to australia in 3 weeks time..=\...i know...i will...i'll be strong...i wanted to hold a bbq at kensington park next saturday but the pit has been taken..no choice but to go down pasir ris park to book a pit...hope i will get one or i dun have to hold a gathering anymore..=\...*sigh* i'm tired...working everyday...i'm tired of thinking...i'm drained...i just hope things will be ok soon...
Eunice @ 2:21:00 AM
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Sunday, January 25, 2004
wOoOooO...!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS!! how's everyone's angbao collection this year??..=D...did u guys have fun??..my chinese new year was alright overall i guess...what happened??..read on.. heehee
New Year Eve: not working that day..but was asked to reach my auntie's place earlier to help prepare the reunion lunch..had steamboat with heaps of stuff..auntie doreen booked the function room..it's so cool..looks like a ballroom man..gambled a bit with my dearest cousins..i think i lost money...anyway..left the place at around 5pm..and head home and spent the rest of the night staring into blank space...*grumbles*
1st Day of CNY: dear came over in the morning to pass me the cough medicine..he spent a while at my house and then went home..oh yes oh yes..i'm down with a serious cough that is killing me..i have difficulty in my breathing now..sheesh..i can't sleep well at night..cos i kept coughing..anyway..called his mummy up later to say thank you for the medicine and the mandarins..haha~..can u believe it? i'm gonna go visit my relatives but i got no mandarines to "bai nian"..thanks to bryan's mummy...whee~~ headed to auntie doreen's place around 1pm..same old thing...sit around eat...and then gambled..won around $20..my cousins ask me to go over to their house for mahjong..was indecisive about it..so i tag along cos dear was in ang mo kio too..and suggested we go home together...plans changed after that..they decided to go KTV..of cos i agreed! i love singing..!..asked dear if he wanted to go..and he agreed too! whee..so marlon,marshal,yvonne,dear and i went to Hougang Plaza's K-BOX..we were having heaps of fun especially after shiya( cardin's gf) arrived..until when the waiter or whatever u call him..made a mistake in the billing..my cousin talked to him nicely but he had a very bad attitude and the way he talk juz sucks..sounds like we owe him a million bucks..marshal got pissed with his attitude..and shouted back at the person..marshal and marlon are both my cousins..i watched them grow up so i know that marshal's temper has never been good at all..indeed it's getting from bad to worst..he nearly fighted with the people who worked in K-BOX..everyone tried to stop marshal and calm him down but it was no use..*sigh* i asked marlon when we were both alone in the room..i asked if marshal is always lidat..he told me ya..marshal's has a lot of police cases on hand now cos of rioting..even in school..his temper is just bad...i sat there thinking for awhile..is something bothering marshal? is he hiding his real feelings inside and nobody knows?..what is wrong?...indeed i was right..the next minute i went out..i saw him crying outside the toilet with shiya and yvonne beside him..my heart hurts when i hear the words come out from his mouth..*sigh* he's the youngest in his family..his studies are no good..and is always looked down by the others..they come from a broken family..his dad is a jerk and caused the whole family to go into bankruptcy a few years ago..it was a really really hard time for them all at that time..but they all were determined to pick themselves up again..each of them are earning about $1000++ per month now..and of cos yvonne more..marshal and cardin hates to be looked down..as marshal and marlon are twins..there's bound to be competition between them both..marlon has always been the smarter one..marlon once looked down on him when he got into normal tech and he himself got into normal academic..he even called marshal a loser..i guess he didn't mean it..as in jokingly..but didn't noe that marshal took it so seriously..marshal said this that day "so what if my dad bankrupt..so what if we were once poor?..i got the money now! i always get looked down when i'm at work..always get scolded..now i got the money..why must they look down on me?..marlon i will remember u looking down on me..forever..u dunno how much it hurts me deep inside..u remember?? u remember looking down on me? u remember u called me a loser??..do u noe it hurt me?..i will rememer forever...and i will win u one day..i will!..u wait and see.." den he cried in his sister's shoulders and say he's not a loser repeatedly...my heart really hurts when he said those stuff...it was meant to be their birthday that day..but it all turned out like this...i asked marlon to calm down and let marshal talk..dun get offended or anything cos marshal is a bit drunk already...since young..i dote on marlon more than the other one..we decided to go home around 3:30am..at the bus stop..the two twins nearly got into a fight..but i know marlon's face was hit by marshal...it must have hurt...marlon fighted back but we managed to pull them apart after that..*sigh* shiya and marlon left first..then followed by dear and i..yvonne and marshal went for a walk..till now i'm still quite affected by what happened that night..my cousins..the pair of cousins i loved and cared and doted the most these years became like that..they dun seem like brothers at all..what happened...i wish i know...*sigh*
2nd day of CNY: dear called me up at around 1pm..and asked me tag along with him to "bai nian" to his relatives..went to his auntie's place where 33 people gathered together..seems like a classroom man..i felt a little weird..mainly cos i have never seen all these people before and as u guys know..i got very low self esteem..i felt like people were giving me weird looks or talking about me..there's wasn't a sense of security at all..i just felt lthat his relatives don't really like me..maybe cos of my looks or maybe cos i am from overseas and probably thinks that i'm playing with his feelings? *sigh* i dunnoe..am i thinking too much?..but overall...i felt a bit better when bryan's cousin came and asked me what am i playing when i was browsing through the images in my mobile phone...i lent her my phone and she went around taking pictures of whoever she can find..super cute..but after awhile..her mum asked her to give me back the phone..(._.)zzz i dunno why?..anyway..i learnt a few names that night..good job..he got two cousins who look pretty and cute..sharon and siling..heehee..they are sisters..cool man~..anyway..i think his cousin siling sms him after she left and said "hey ur girl girl kawaii!! very matching..hee..." heehee..*flies* when i saw that sms..left around 8pm..sat his uncle's car back to tampines cos it was raining..the trip back i was super duper quiet..OH YEAH..i am such a fidgety person..i can't sit still at all..however that day i actually sit on the same spot on the sofa for about 4-5 hours..lolz..eunice was a good girl that day..lol..parted with his mum and then dear sent me home..we watched tv and then dear went home around 2:30am i think..? interesting day actually....i am ren jian ren ai de eunice..i just felt weird..maybe i'm scared that i won't be accepted by his relatives..but then again..like what steph say..i muz think why they think that way of me if it's really the reason..cos i'm from overseas...time will change everything...she asked me to be patient...alright..=D
Yesterday: woke up around 10am..mainly cos i was going over to dear's house to watch "Wishing Stairs" in the end i went over around 1:30pm..cos i had stomach cramps..=D...(girls would know what i mean?)..lol..anyway..had lunch at his house..his mum cooked...oh man..i missed home-cooked food..all i've been eating since i arrived is just cup noodles or outside food..haven't eaten home cooked food at all..it tasted so good!! it was delicious..his mum is such a talented cook..wait till she and i get closer i'm gonna learn some recipes from her and cook for mummy...she knows how to cook so much of mummy's favourite dishes..bryan's mummy rocks!! lol..=DD..finished watching the first disc of "Wishing Stairs" at around 4pm..dear had yesterday's programmes planned....i told u he's such a sensitive boyfriend..where else can i find a better one? he booked the tickets like i dunno how many days ago.."Magic Kitchen" is the movie i'm talking about here..JERRY YAN~~ and and it has STEPHEN FUNG in the show too..oh my god..they are both so cute!! but still i prefer my darling..=D...dear didn't wanna tell me where he's gonna bring me for dinner..and i didn't even expect him to go and reserve a place at "Fish & Co"..i only said that i wanted to go try it out one day..and indeed about one week later i'm in "Fish & Co" eating the "Seafood Platter for two"..he reserved a place even a few days beforehand...he rocks..dear..*kiss*kiss* i just love him so much..i was so happy when i was in "Fish & Co"..i wanted to give him a big hug but i know i have to control my actions..haha..i was touched...he dotes on me so much..who can treat me better? *muackz* i hafta treasure him..100%..wheee...we then walked around tampines mall..decided on buying a jigsaw puzzle to do together..=DD..we bought a 950 pieces "THE DOG" jigsaw puzzle..it's so cute but BIG and all the pieces look the same..so white..sheesh..it's gonna be hard..our aim is to finish thie jigsaw before i go back to australia..anyway..we finished the border last night..whee..and dear finished some words and some legs and and tongues and bodies of some small dogs..=D..we both decided to take a rest and that is when i fell asleep till 630am and found dear missing..he went home without telling me..cos i was sleeping so soundly..heehee..lalala..
Today: i'm back to work today..received auntie's angbao fo $10 for starting work...whee..it was such a busy day i felt i couldn't handle it alone...where's my auntie?? she's probably somewhere in the clouds now heading to Japan and i will only see her back 3 week later..she's coming back on the 15th Feb..since 14th is a Saturday and i'm not working on saturdays..i shall stopped work on the 13th..haha..that will give me a week instead of 5 days break before going back to australia..i just can't help thinking that time is running out for me and dear....we have less than 4 weeks now..why does time pass so fast? how i hoped i could turn back time to the day we got together...and go through all the happy memories again...my sadness will start on the day i go back..i dunno how long this sadness is gonna stay with me..i know i'm gonna miss him a lot and a lot..i got faith i got confidence but i'm gonna miss him so much...how i wished i met him in perth instead...but fate is like that...i just have to be thankful that i found him among the millions and millions of people around the world...ok..i shall stop thinking or else i'm gonna cry...=\..dear came and picked me up from the bus top today..he bought my the pandol for menstrual pain...lol..muz be embarrassing for him to buy it..thanks darling..then he bought me two bread from "Bread"...hotdog bun!! wheee! it's been long since i last eat that thing..lol..used to bring it to school when i was young..lol..continued our jigsaw puzzle and this time dear managed to piece together the small doggies..and i managed to finish half a big dog..ganbatte dear..we can do it..woah...5am already?? WAHH..so long entry..how is anyone gonna read this entry man...is anyone gonna be bothered? i really wonder...hey hey..leave me a message in my comment box if u really did finished reading everything i blogged today...wanna see how mani people actually can be bothered with what's happening to me..muahahha..bye all..miss u darling...
=*= Song Playing: Tension - Our Story =*=
Eunice @ 1:09:00 PM
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Thursday, January 15, 2004
hihi..haven't been blogging for quite some time eh?..so here's a recap of event that has happened since then:
Sunday (11th Jan): i saw dear online on gunbound..plucked up my courage and message him..results were good..he replied..and we talked..he told me he wanna be alone for awhile..i asked him if he will come back to me once he's alright and if he will break up with me..he said yes and no...i'm the last girl he wanna spend his time with...i was so touched..came home after work that day and saw the things he wrote in my irc while i was at work..i finally understood what was wrong..he said we have been see-ing each other too much..and he's scared that when i have to go back to australia he has to face with the loneliness again...scared of not seeing me around after i leave...scared of not touching my face and seeing my eyes..my warm hugs and etc..he's scared that he would miss me a lot..he just doesn't show it out like i do..*sigh* dearie..dun think so much..we have to treasure our another month plus together before i go back..every minute is precious..have faith in us..i'll see u in perth in june..and i will come back for u in november..okies? *kiss*
Monday (12th Jan): by monday..everything between me and dear was totally fine..so happy..went shopping with bird at orchard..bought a top and jeans at Dorothy Perkins. ran out of money so both of us went to get the atm card from my brother at my old house in serangoon..we have a lot of memores while i was staying there...we practically grew up there...walked around with bird downstairs and we started talking about what we used to do at the swimming pool, the bbq pit, playground etc etc..memories just all came back..not only the both of us miss that house..a couple of other friends miss it too..anyway..sat in front of the tennis court and talk..that's when i decided to organise a bbq thingy at that place before i go back..response are still fine at the moment..about 18 people confirmed with me already..it will be on the 7th February..thanks to my brother who helped me book the pit..*hugs* went Pasar Malam after that with bird..i finally get to eat my "Cha Ye Dan" hmm..how do u say it in english? herbal egg? lol..anyway..ate the malay burger too..it tasted yummy!! i love it!! anyway..helped bird do her homework and then i headed home..
Tuesday (13th Jan): back to work..it was boring until evening time when i saw someone familiar walking towards the shop...walked out of the counter and i was damn shocked..it was dear!!! hahaa..he gave me a surprise and even bought dinner for me!! korean chicken rice..tasted alright..lalala..wheeeeeeeeeeeee~~
Wednesday (14th Jan): more shopping done with theresa and bird ...actually i think it was more of a eating day out than a shopping day out..ate bacon and cheese thingy at "Breadtalk",snacked at "Simply Thai" i love the otah and the iced tea!!..then went to food court to eat again at 5pm..finally got down to shopping..after that back to suntec's "Pacific Cafe", ordered heaps of stuff..i ordered potato salad and a lime juice,theresa orderes a hot chocolate and japanese salad, bird had a roasted chicken pita and mineral water..however we still added a oreo cheesecake and a banana boat..lol..rocks man..anyway got my two tops that day..a brown one and a white one..and i bought a bear and a top for dear...went to his house after shopping secretly..haha..which means his parents didn't noe i was over..anyway passed him the bear and his response was that he didn't like it..but he still kept it..i insist he put the bear on top of his monitor..(yeah maybe i'm mad..who buys i love you bears for guys?) asked him to try on the top and it looks quite big so i told him i will go exchange for a smaller size soon..played on his computer for awhile and then went home..
Thursday (15th Jan): work again...was a very busy day..the place was flooded when i reached my workplace..luckily my auntie was already there..cleaning up the place..and then she goes on and on..blaming us blah blah blah..saying that we didn't clear the plates before washing them..so she called the service man and guess what? there's nothing stuck..it's just oil..HAHA!..lalala..anyway i was alone from the evening onwards and it was super busy..i started panicking, i broke a glass and cut my palm..not a big cut just a small one..the boys that i was serving were so shocked..lol..anyway..dear came at around 9+pm..bought me dinner again...so nice..went along with dear to meet his friends up at pavilion after work..really just for a while..wasn't even half an hour..anyway came to my house after that and dear gave me something..wheeee!! he bought me marshmellows!! the ones that i like..the ones that has something in the middle of it..it's like a sticky jelly-like liquid in the middle..whooo i was so happy..immediately ate 3 of them...3 different flavours..i think the strawberry one taste the best..thanks darling..*muackz* he tried on the top i bought for him again and this time it suits better..lol..maybe he put on weight in 1 day??..haha..and to sum up thursday's event. the
BEST news is that i read my university offers online last night..and guess what!! i got offered my first preference which is my first choice which is something i wanna do and hoping to get in..
I GOT INTO MEDICAL SCIENCE!!!!! oh my god..i couldn't stop smiling at the computer when i saw it..i just couldn't believe my eyes..how come i was offered the course?? i was just shocked..i thought i couldn't make it..immediately called my mum and she was so happy for me too..she told my dad and my dad said "well done"..i've made my parents proud..and i certainly didn't disappoint them and my friends this time round..wheeee!! i'm so happy..anyway medical science involves chemistry and health..it's like researching for medicine etc etc.. i love it!!! lalalala~~..
Friday (16th Jan): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! to my little sis..she's 14 already..how time flies..seems like she was just a baby yesterday..cradled in my mum's arms out of the hospital..how she first learnt to walk, how she wore my mum's t-shirt when she was just a baby..and it looks enormous on her..lol..i just love this sister of mine..she's the second closest person to me in my family...she's so cool..i tell her heaps of stuff..and she tells me too..i always pick her up from school..once she gets into the car she will just go on and on about what happened in school today..who is a bitch who is a bastard blah blah blah..sometimes i will just listen and sometimes i will bitch along..haha..depends on my mood..anyway..it's zouk tonight with bird,theresa and friends..might meet with zhenyi and joanne too..hope tonight will be fun..woot..missing you darling..*muackz*
Eunice @ 10:33:00 PM
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Saturday, January 10, 2004
still no news from him...all he left me with is a channel topic which says " sorry dear..i'm just being childish.." i dunno what does that mean..childish about what..when i saw that topic i immediately called him up but again it was useless..he didn't answer my call...not even once..everything is like a jigsaw puzzle waiting to be pieced altogether..but there's just one missing piece that i can't find..i dunno if he's okay..i dunno if he is eating well..sleeping well..resting well..is he taking care of himself or is he torturing himself? i got absolutely no idea..i'm lost..maybe he need some time to sort some thoughts out but i'm so scared that everything might end..i already did all i can but nothing has changed..how i wish i can reassure him now..that everything is fine...i really wanna see him and give him a big hug and tell him everything is okay..but i cannot do anything..i feel so useless i can't help him..i cannot even give him the sense of security after a month..i can only wait till he calls me...and pray hard that this is not the end..i can't let it end like that...i know he's thinking about something..something negative but i dunno what is it..if only our telepathy works now...*sigh* if only i know what is he thinking...if only i can get to see him now...the "if only" goes on and on...i can't lose you dear..can u hear me?..=~~ i can't sleep till 530am this morning..kept tossing and turning around...he's in my mind all the time..i afraid that he doesn't want me anymore..i dunno...*sigh* when will he answer my call...??..where is he?? what is he doing??..what is wrong..? is he okay..? etc etc..i just can't stop thinking..i miss him so much until it really hurts deep inside...i know it's no use that i keep crying...i just have to be strong and show him that i really love him..and really pray hard that he will be okay soon..dear..i will
NEVER give up on you..
I LOVE YOU
Eunice @ 7:30:00 PM
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Friday, January 09, 2004
i juz reached home...so tired...something happened to bryan and i last night..and it's still not settled...i went out at around 130am..wanted to wait outside his house until he comes out the next morning..which is around 7am..zhenyi was worried about me being out alone so after
MUCH persuasion..she came and meet me at blk 280 to collect me and brought me back to herself..she say she will let me off at 515am and i can go wait all i want..i dunno what happened either..everything was still find between me and him yesterday..he went to pick me up from work..recalling everything..i dunno where the problem lies...we were alright in the bus...when we went 7-eleven i accidentally dropped his phone on the floor...he was angry but after we left 7-11 we were fine after awhile..we still joked with each other...then we went to look for my dinner..we walked from one coffeeshop to another..all around 201..cos i can't decide on what i wanna eat..but most of the coffeeshops were closed..maybe he was tired he said " dun keep walking around leh..see what u wanna eat.."..in an impatient tone..so i decided on mee goreng at the indian store..after that..we didn't talk much..didn't hold hands..but after a while he held my hand still..so i thought everything was fine?..he usually will accompany me..but he said he had to go home cos it was getting late..so i said ok..and didn't talk much in case i say the wrong stuff again..so he sent me to the lift..he asked me to sleep early..i nodded and left..everything seemed fine so far?..but when i reached home..i called him from 12am onwards..he just wouldn't answer my call...went into gunbound to see if he's online and yes indeed..he was playing gunbound..jumping from one room to another..i messaged him so many times but he didn't reply..when he finally did..he said "what you want?"..i was stunned at his reply...so i told him dun lidat pls..wad is wrong..what can i do to stop all these...again no reply..when he replied again..he say he's going to sleep...goodnight and log off immediately..i was lost...i duno what to do..i kept calling him but he didn't answer...i'm sure i called him about 20 times..or maybe more than that..yes i was that desperate...later he sms-ed me "i sleep le..dun stay up too late k?" i called him right after i received that message but again no answer..i knew something was wrong so i packed my bag,got out of my house,hail for a cab..and headed to his house..called him..no answer..sms him telling him i am outside his house..i will wait..no reply..*sigh* i dunno what is wrong..i really dunno..i didn't wanted to go to zhenyi's house at first cos i was afraid i wouldn't get to see him and talk things out...but zhenyi asked me to sms him and tell him to call or sms me when he wake up..so in that case i can go down to his house since zhenyi's house is so near to bryan's...but in the end..he didn't...he only sms me when he was heading for work..his sms says "i go office le..please go home..later fall sick"...i didn't get to see him in the end..i didn't get to talk things out..blame myself for not insisting to wait outside his house...damn..what is the problem..was it because i dropped his phone? was he pissed because he had to walk around with me looking for my dinner?..was it because i didn't give him a goodbye kiss or hug when i went home? or is it like what zhenyi told me..he's irritated with me already?..as in see-ing me will fan gan..will get irritated..? i dunnoe..i'm so lost now i dunnno what to do..cos i just can't figure out where the problem lies...it's tearing up my heart...after that sms he sent me this morning..he wouldn't answer or reply any of my calls and sms anymore...i'm so heartbroken now..he's supposed to come to my place later in the afternoon..i guess he's not coming over anymore...dear...where are you?...why why why?..can't we talk things out nicely? why must u ignore me?..do u really bear to?..i dun even get a chance to know what is wrong..if it's my fault i will apologise and admit..but i dun even know..i'm so confused..i have already asked myself that question a million times but i still dun get it..i'm stupid..i'm dumb..just pleaseee...answer my calls..you know clearly i love you..you know how much i treasure you and you know i can't lose you..but why are you doing all this to me now..please stop it...answer my calls..i will never give up..i will wait for the day u willing to talk to me again..as i said before.. i will never let you go..wo gen ding ni le..
I LOVE BRYAN...
P.S: Thanks to Zhenyi who took care of me last night and willing to accompany me..and also congrats to u finishing ur mission..it looks nice...thanks for ur bed..*muackz*...
Song Playing: Tension - Our Story
Eunice @ 7:34:00 PM
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Thursday, January 08, 2004
*yawns* just finished my gunbound session..haven't been blogging for quite some time..so how are you guys?..hmm..lots of things happened...let's start from the happy ones...it's our first month anniversary yesterday..as in 8th Jan..heehee..met zhenyi early in the morning for breakfast..called dear up at 7am and see if he was awake..hmm..indeed he was on his way to work..den he didn't felt like going to work..so he asked the taxi uncle to U-turn and came to find me after that..so zhenyi,dear and i went 201 for breakfast together..i was so sleepy..sheesh..after breakfast we all headed to my house..where zhenyi kinda entertained herself with my brother watching "Kong Pow" while dear and i stayed in my room...not long after i fell asleep till 230pm..haha..oops!..poor dear...had to find things to entertain himself too..he watched 3 discs of my "Love Storm" vcd..played some gunbound..ate his lunch..watched tv..while waiting for me to wake up..lolz...i was sleeping like a log..he calls me a "log cake" grrrrr....anyway..dear stayed till about 130am..heehee..we cooked dinner together today..well..it was an easy dinner..lol..pasta...lalala..but we cooked too much..in the end we were both bloated..couldn't move at all..lol..just lie on the bed and watch tv..time passed so quickly and it's a month already..dear..we got a long way to go still...muz presevere ok? thanks for putting up with my rubbish all the time..i love you...heehee...*muackz*...
hmm..i'm so tired now i dunno what to blog about..oh yesh yesh...received a bunch of papers at my doorstep the other day..read it and guess who is it from?? the lawyers...my mum has been sued by Standard Chartered Bank..fuk..i dunno how is my mum gonna handle this matter now..i'm so worried about her..but from what i heard from steph..if my mum is overseas...there is nothing they can do either..as in they can't do anything to my mum..what i'm worried about is if they take legal action without noticing my mum and declared us bankrupt here in singapore..den they will take both our houses and all our assets..then my mum is gonna suffer a big loss of money..sheesh..but anyway..it's good in a way that she doesn't have to worry about the things in singaopre anymore and can concentrate on building up something in australia..they can't force her to pay her debts anymore if she's declared bankrupt here in singapore right? hmm..dunno..see how...sigh..poor mum..i'm damn worried about my brother too..damn..i dunno what the fuck is he thinking..he's so old already..instead of setting up a good example..he's taking the wrong path in life...*Sigh* shall not elaborate..anyway..i'm afriad to stay at home too..dear suggested that i move over to his house..i dunno if he's serious..but actually i dun mind..but the problem is i'm scared that i will trouble his family too much..and it's not nice that a stranger comes and live in your house right..it's like invading their personal space..if worst come to worst..can someone give me somewhere to stay??..i'm scared that something might happen..i dunnoe...see how things go...i've got work tomorrow...haven't been going to work since tuesday..well..i'm sick!! haha..like real.."sick" i mean..i got no choice man..if i dun try to take as mani off days as i can now..i won't be able to spend much time with dear and my frenz after the 25th..sheesh..damn auntie..i wanna tell her that i wanna stop working 2 weeks before i go back...i dun give a damn about her going on holiday..for 3 fucking weeks..i dun care..she can come back after two weeks..or choose to close her shop on the thrid week..lalalaa..but it all comes down to my own courage..am i brave enough to go up to her and tell her i wanna stop work 2 weeks before i leave??..do i have the
GUTS??? haha..i dunno..i'm sleepy..i wanna go to sleep..and DAMNNN...i got a big scar on my face!!...damn the pimple!! shit...hope it fades tomorrow..or else i be putting lots of make up on and try to cover that damn blardee scar...haha...*eunice prays hard*..okie dokie..time to go now...my bed's waiting for me...see ya guys...
Eunice @ 12:19:00 PM
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Friday, January 02, 2004
i'm waiting for dear's call...guess he's not calling anymore..he seemed tired just now...and he got to wake up early to go back camp tomorrow...so i think i should just go to sleep after blogging..*yawns* left work early yesterday at 8pm..went to meet bird,meiyun,huiting & eugene last night after work at Kovan Mrt Station..went for dinner at Sakae Sushi...then we decided to go KTV after that..so we went to K-Box at Hougang Plaza...was there till 3am..i think i sang the most...so paiseh..seem like i was hogging on the microphone..but it was quite fun..meiyun and eugene are so cute...they've been together for 3 years..hope they can last long...=)..all the best to them...couldn't sleep last night till 8am this morning...dunno why...woke up at around 2pm...cos my brother came into my room and talk on the phone...grrgrrrgrrr...and even smoked in my room..i mean yes i do smoke too..but i personally dun like the smell of cigarette in my room..or when the smoke gets in my face...grrrgrrr...anyway..sms-ed dear and we decided to meet up and go for a movie..dear came over at around 630 and helped me fixed up the speaker for my computer..he gave me his old speaker..wheee..now i can listen to songs!!..so we went to watch Ju-On 2 at Tampines Mall..hmm..it's scary but it's not...it just gets so boring when the woman ghost comes out too many times and with the same posture and facial expression and same spot..yeah..but anyway i enjoyed my nachos with cheese..waahaha..and i certainly enjoyed dear feeding me potato chips...lols..though he wasn't really looking where my mouth was..lol...thanks dear...*muackz* went to have dinner after that and headed back to my home..watched dear play gunbound...den spent some time together then he went home at around 2am...heehee...and i've been in front of the computer since then...got to wake up early tomorrow..grrr...auntie asked me to go work at 11am..brrrr...boring...i hate working...blahblahblah..right then..i think i shall go to sleep now..my head is hurting and spinning...bye guys..take care..nites dearie..*muackz* see you tomorrow...nitez everyone...
Eunice @ 11:27:00 AM
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