Monday, March 29, 2004
went to the specialist today..and the decision made is i will be admitted to hospital later at 4pm..and be in there for a few days.i will be going for an operation later in the evening. they be doing the laparoscopy operation on me. putting down a tube into my belly button and check what is wrong. the specialist reckon it's appendicitis, if it is then another operation will be done on me during the next few days or next week to take my appendix out..or else whatever he sees that is ruined then he will take it out if possible. so yeah..my first operation..of cos i am scared...i'm now at home..going to pack all my necessities into my bag and head to hospital land. i be living in a private room.well wish me all the best...as for my darling..i will miss u the most...love u dearie..muackz..study ok?
Eunice @ 9:53:00 PM
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Friday, March 26, 2004
bloody doctors...i dunno what the hell is wrong with them...i had a bloodtest and they tell me say i got an inflammed appendix...i was forced to drinks tons and tons of water down today..for my x ray and ultrasound..they found nothing...they hit on my back...and in the end made the pain even worst...and their conclusion is THEY DUNNO WHAT IS WRONG..!! what the fuck...5 doctors...2 weeks of pain...DUNNO!?!? how the fuck am i supposed to accept that?? den who can tell me why am i in pain!!??...i have to miss out on school on monday again..cos i need to go and have an appointment with the specialist and the surgeon for a 2nd opinion...arghz...fucking doctors...arghz..who can tell me what's wrong? i can be a doctor too..cos i DUNNO too!! we all can be doctors!!!
Eunice @ 2:22:00 AM
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
the pain is still not gone...went to the hospital on wednesday afternoon..and they confirmed that i got inflammed appendicitis...they didn't wanna operate on me cos they reckoned it's not serious..and partly i think they're too scared to hold responsibility if anything goes wrong..this is wat australian doctors are...SCARED and TIMID...they gave me painkillers and told me if the pain still persist after a few days den come back again...how many times must thye tell me that? after a few days after a few days..and let this pain drag on and on and on...??...the moment i ate the painkillers on wednesday night..the pain was so hard to bear..it was so painful..i couldn't walk or move..i can't even stand...not even lie down to rest....when i finally did manage to lie down..it was so painful i couldn't stop crying.....darling called and he heard me crying in pain...his heart ached...and he cried on the phone..saying his useless and stuff...no darling u're not..please dun say that k?...he told me he went crazy when he heard me cry in pain..he didn't noe what to do so he grab his mum and told her..he was so worried and scared...=(...he say it's like someone killing me in front of him but he can't do anything...he felt useless...haizz...darling called my sis and ask my sis to look after me..but my sis herself looked so scared...so she had to call mum into my room...at that time i was crying so badly..mum wanted to call the ambulance..but i stopped her..i asked her to wait a while..it might get better....which it did settle down a little after an hour...the painkillers didn't help..the pain still bugs me till today...mum suggest going to the hospital again today..and tell them to operate on me and take my appendix out..it's better that way..and i dun have to suffer in pain...anyway..i better go and rest now..i miss my darling..i haven't spoke to him for so long...and now though we are both online...he's busy...=\..oh well...
Eunice @ 7:40:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
i'm in pain for the past few days..the pain started on sunday night...went to the doctor's yesterday and she gave me a medical certificate for 2 days...the pain is on the right side of my waist and it really hurts..the doctor asked me if my peroid is coming..i told her it should be due these few days...she told me that it might be cos my ovaries are trying to release the eggs but can't...so it's causing the pain OR it might be some stuff blocking my appendix..she say i have to eat bland food and eat panadols...if the pain persists on thursday den i have to go to the hospital...zzz...mum say she will bring me to the hospital later today..i dun wanna go...what if i have to stay in hospital?...i dun want to..it will be so boring....and i can't talk to my boy...sigh...i dun wan....=
i know he has been very worried for me these few days...and sad too cos he can't do anything to help me take the pain away..he can't even be physically beside me to hug me or whatever...miss those days he looked after me when i was sick back in singapore...but what to do..i gotta be independent...take care of myself for his sake..and get well soon...darling dun worry about me too much ok?...u better study hard alright?..dun forget about studying huh...u have to pass this time..i know u can do it...i got faith in u...=)...
urghh...pain....i got no appetite to eat already...=(.....i dun wanna go hospital......
Eunice @ 7:54:00 PM
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Friday, March 19, 2004
hmm..thought it's time to blog...before my blog starts growing spiderwebs again..hee..anyway..things between me and my boy are settled..in fact it was settled last sunday night..we know how each other feel..and i guess that incident make us understand and love each other more..no more stupid arguments ok darling? bleah..=P *kiss* heehee...so how was ur week? mine was crappy..i missed out 3 days of school...lalala...had constipation..*poot* this has never happened to me before in my 4 years stay in australia..probably cos i wasn't drinking enough water..lala..my stomach hurts like hell..i couldn't even walk properly..i juz groan and moan in bed...went to the doctor on tuesday afternoon..and he said since laxatives dun really work well for me..i juz have to get this medicine that i have to stick it up my butt...he say i have to attack from below...NO WAY am i stuffing anything up my butt!!! so in the end i didn't buy the medicine..i juz stick to my laxatives and plenty of water..which worked!! i was fine on thursday..but instead of my stomach that hurt...my bladder...nono..my tummy hurt...pain after pain...was supposed to study at the library with the girls...couldn't study cos it was so painful...so ended up playing gunbound and talking to my darling online..lol..lalala..wanted to go fishing with steph,alan,doris and benson that night but plans were changed cos we all dun feel like going anymore..instead we went to chill out at "Fast Eddy's"...quite interesting night...hmmm..went home..decided to take panadol and see if it can cure my pain...went to sleep after....zzzzz. Amazingly, my tummy didn't hurt anymore when i woke up yesterday morning..HAH! thanks panadol!!
i had work yesterday..the first job i got in perth so far...=D...it was crap and crap and crap!! i swear i'm not going back to that place to work anymore...now i feel so lucky working in "IT Cafe" in singapore even with a pay of $4/hour. the place i worked yesterday was a nightmare to me..it's so small and dirty and hot and super busy..i couldn't handle it. i didn't rest at all the whole 6 hours..i was dehydrating...my hair was so greasy after work. anyway..the place was so small..really really small..there were a lot of butt to butt battles yesterday..so mani butt bumping sessions...u can imagine me shifting to my left and then right juz to let the aunties there move..butt dance...zzz...i was also the manual dishwashing machine..my hands are so rough now...=( it was so busy..and i was only allowed a drink per day...zz..i had to lie say i need to go to the toilet...ran towards the drink fountain....i could drink till there was no water left..i was so thirsty...=( what's worst!! the aunties kept talking in indonesian..i felt so left out...zzz...AND AND...when i was serving the food..i saw a cockroach crawling to and fro in front of me..i dunno if i should scream and jump or cry on the spot..lolz..anyway i stayed calm and pray that the cockroach dun fly into my face...hehe...i'm not going back there to work..nononono! sigh..i was so tired and drained...last time when i was working at "IT Cafe" no matter how tired i am..the thought of my boy coming later to accompany me home juz gives me a boost of energy to keep working on...i miss those days...i miss my boy...=(
went fishing last night with my mum and dad..actually it was only my mum and me..we wanted to go before my dad comes back..yeah we wanted to exclude my dad..well..i juz dun really like my dad now....i noe i shudn't do that..but it's a long story and it needs a lot of explaining done to tell why i dun like him now...explain maybe next time..bahh...i finally know why my mum is so stressed and pissed at my dad...i finally know how she feels after she talk to me...and after what i observed with my own eyes..lalala...it's not mum's fault at all..it's not what i used to think about my mum..i finally understand...=) so i try to accompany my mum more now..ok..back to fishing..i caught 3 fishes..met this guy from malaysia there last night..think he was there with his dad..we talked,we competed and see who will catch the fish first..in the end the score was 2-1 i lost..damn it..he's studying in CIC...i think he's younger than me by the way he looks..anyway when i was going off..he asked me for my name and asked when will i come again? i was shocked..lolz...anyway..told him..my mum knew cos she was all the while beside me..lol..if my boy was there...i guess he would ask the guy to fuk off..lolzz..i miss my boy...ok..how many times must i say that..i guess he's sneezing on the way home now..bleah..*kiss* lolz....
it's cocktail night and clubbing tonight with the girls!!! wooohooo!! i miss "The Church" man!! woohooo!! i miss the bass thumping in my head...i miss the loud music...!! i juz miss the place so much!! hope we all have fun tonight..lalala!! darling dun worry k? i will take care of myself..will sms u every hour to tell u i'm ok alright? lolz...and will definitely sms u when i'm home...lala..miss u darling...muackz..bye all!!
Eunice @ 8:23:00 PM
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Sunday, March 14, 2004
written a letter...called him...sent the letter.....pray that things will be back to normal soon.....or maybe everything will be over....=\ ......i've got no mood to do anything...everything seem to be going against me...time seem to be passing so slowly...it's killing me...life is so boring without you...i juz wanna bury my head into the ground...maybe i should disappear too....blah....no mood....bye...
p.s: sorry steph...couldn't help u out today...cos i don't have a car..mum borrowed my car...bro not at home...dad took the other car...i'm really sorry...=( and i need to cook dinner....hope u forgive me ya?
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....arghz...someone just kill me!!!!! kill kill kill me!!!! itz been four days....
Eunice @ 12:13:00 AM
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk....bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
he has disappeared..........
why the fuck is all these happening now!!!!!!!!!! someone tell meeeeeeeee!!!! is this really the end?..would i believe it? why didn't u come to me instead of disappearing again...would u really wanna lose me?? =~~~~ fuck it!!!!! i'm lost and sad and hurt and fucked and AHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK OFF it hurtssssssss =~~~ i wanna cryyyyyyy someone lend me a shoulder to cry on........did u forget your promise?? exactly 3 weeks ago..we were still fine..it was the day i left..u still helped me pack my luggage...send me off at my house downstairs..u told me that everything is going to be fine...that we can definitely go through this obstable together..we both cried..i wipe off ur tears and u wiped off mine...and now everything is fucked...have u given up?
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Eunice @ 9:46:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...
isn't that sweet? i got it from email...that's what he used to do too...telling me i'm not cute,i'm not pretty and telling me he want to find another girlfriend cos i'm no good..then when i'm sad..he would make me smile again...*sigh* if only that could happen now...bahhhhhh..i'm feeling down....off to school now to suffer more sadness....i'm hurt... =~~~~
Eunice @ 10:38:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 09, 2004
*sigh* juz got back from school..i really really dread it when it comes down to human biology tutorials...no it's not the people in there...they are okay..it's just i've got no idea about what's going on at all..people in there all know at least a bit about human biology..well..at least they noe the tissues and cells and parts and stuff and the freaking terms..but me..i dun even know what is a cell..i've got absolutely no idea about it at all..and this semester and terms are gonna pass by so quickly..i'm not going to catch up at all..i spoke to my tutor after lesson today and told her about my difficulties..but she seemed like she doesn't really care at all..i asked her if i fail this unit will i be able to proceed on to the next semester..she said yes but then she then said something about not proceeding to the next year..and then she said i can just dun choose to major in something that doesn't need human biology as a pre-requisite..zzzz...i chose this course "Medical Science" cos i want to? and if i dun do medical science then wat else am i supposed to do? DUH..anyway..she then told me to get a private tutor to teach me human biology...but tuition fees would be at quite a high cost cos i'm in uni..and if i'm gonna have tuition like twice a week..then it would be such a waste of money..and furthermore,i be looking for a job and teaching chinese tuition and i got heaps of tutorials to do and stuff...i be exhausted..sigh..i feel so useless..i just sit in class,looking so blank and lost cos i got no idea what is going on..i tried reading the textbook but i still dun understand anything...i feel like an idiot..especially today when i had to do the assignments together with my group mates..i did some pre-sessions questions and i found them alright..so i thought i would know what is going on today...in the end..they got annoyed at me and ignored me..i dunno..i thought i could apply what i learnt during the past few days to today's assignments..however..when i give comments or ask questions,they would not even listen to me or even answer my questions..so i gave up and sat there like an idiot..they did the assignments between the two of them and didn't even bother to tell me what are they doing or explain to me..so i had most of my pages blank..i felt so terrible at that point of time..i was on the verge of tears when i looked around the classroom and everyone was doing their work and working as a group sharing ideas and answers...i felt so useless...i felt like running out of the classroom and never return back again...the feeling just sucks...
Yesterday was dear and i 3rd month anniversary...it was just like an ordinary day..just miss those days when i was back in singapore...miss those days when we had each other by our sides..our last two months anniversaries were both spent at my tampines home.first month we cooked pasta together..ate so much..i bet we're both not gonna touch pasta for the next 6 months...the second anniversary he stayed over at my house the night before...he presented me with food the first moment i woke up..the first time he cooked for me..i remember i was so touched at that point of time..the food tasted extremely yummy as well..sigh..the next few months anniversary we won't be together by each other side..but i'm sure we will have more anniversaries in future together...i love u darling...forever and ever..promise..=D...
(*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh* i'm useless.....i hate human biology....)
Eunice @ 2:23:00 AM
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004
wow it's been how long since i last post something here??..yea yeah..i'm getting realllyyyyyyy lazyyy...=DDD..keke..i'm back in australia..almost 2 weeks already..and school had started for me on monday..so these few days i have been driving up and down..spending most of my time in school...i miss my boy of course...i've been talking to him everyday..and i see him on webcam too...he's always there to make me smile...doing stupid things on webcam for me to see so i can laugh and be happy..thanks darling..school is boring..everyday i got at least 3-4 hours break time..which means i have to drive up and down twice...-.-" bahh..of cos friendly eunice made friends in school...=DD...hmm..but been hanging out with these 2 malaysian girls and 1 singaporean girl..lynette,jacqueline and felicia..cool....hmm..i noe i got lots of things to blog about but i juz dunno where to start..instead maybe i shud end here..=DD...anyway...guess wat..i've been avoiding sam and them for like the past 3 months..when i changed my mobile number..i didn't tell them..mainly cos i dun want history to repeat itself again..HOWEVER, when i was at the bookshop today..someone kept making the sound "shh..shush..shhh.." it was kinda annoying so i turned around..and i saw him..i was shocked!! how can it be!!!!????..why today!?!?..i've been to the bookshop the last 3 days..but why today!?!?..my god..anyway....we talked a little..and then he asked for my number...=~..i gave it to him..and he asked me to go have tea/coffee on friday...gosh..i guess i cannot get away from him..zzzzz...haha..anyway..anyone remember bennie?..i guess people who has been reading my blog for ages would noe who am i talking about..he messaged me last night in icq....quite surprising actually..after a year...he said a lot of things..regrets,hints etc etc...zzz..it's too late to tell me now isn't it??..i got a boyfriend already and i love him wholeheartedly...i wan no one else except bryan...=DD...i can only stay friends with him..hmm..wonder how my dearie will react to this post...darling dun think so much okie? i'm not touched by him or anything..trust me ok? i only love you..promised..by the way..where are you!!!? muz be busy at office again..zzz..miss u..study hard ok? i love you..miss you..tonight we webcam again k? i'm off to eat my dinner now...byebye~..missing my darling..bryan sho!! itz gonna be our 3 months next monday!! time passes so fast!! lalalala...
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Eunice @ 4:21:00 AM
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